I Sometimes Wonder
Now that you’re gone I tend to ask myself, “Why did you grow a goiter after my second child?” All this did was cause you to stop working for me properly. I continue to think about the last six years I had with you, wondering why you didn’t want me anymore; questioning the rapid growth of all those nodules you invited. I never understood your initial function before, why you were so important to me. I’m truly sorry for taking you for granted, ignoring your needs, but I tried to help you thyroid. I took so many blood tests, trying to find a balance so I would be able to save you. Yet as stubborn as you were, you did not allow my blood to read you. You did not let me get help for you! All you began to do was allow the goiter to take control of you, making me weaker in the long run. Thyroid you allowed this damn goiter to grow, faster than ever before. You were the leader, standing tall, staying strong and now you fell behind. You became the follower. I hate you for giving up on me, I hate you for not continuing to be the leader I always knew you were. Yet I thank you for keeping your beloved goiter benign, closed tight and sealed-up from the other nodules by this goiter’s side. I shall miss the good times we had together, the strong moments I felt with you. Now I will move on, learn about the strength I used to get from you when you were strong. I shall look into other ways to fulfill what you used to give me when you were functioning right. This love/hate relationship we had will always be remembered in your memory and will help me to continue the fight.
In your loving memory,