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What’s The Thyoint?
Dear Thyroid,
I don’t blame you. I blame those vicious antibodies that one day decided to attack you. I am most sorry that on my 36th birthday, we were both told you were dying. This was certainly ill timed, as I was experiencing my first I-am-getting-old-birthday.
Than I discover, through no fault of your own, mind you that I have what the nurse called “A disease older women typically get.
Well, that is just fantastic.
Eight months have passed and I miss you more than ever. Please don’t get mad at me for taking you for granted. I didn’t know how important you were. Your so called thyroid replacement; you know, a poor dead pig’s gland, just doesn’t do you justice. I can’t get those levels right. I wake up in the morning feeling hung-over. I live in fear of all the bad things that could happen because of those rogue antibodies. I am forever changed. I worry that I will wind up like you-fibrosisized, ghostly and gone. I hate self pity. I hate indulging in those kinds of thoughts, but I do feel them most days. Most days when I see all food as the enemy, the enemies that will make me fat. Most days when I am cold, despite the warm summer sun. Most days when I drag my ass to the gym to somehow combat (kid) myself that my life is the same.
We were both robbed. You of your life and me of mine. I don’t want to take a pill every morning. I don’t want to take a million supplements to try to negate the antibodies. I don’t want to give blood every month. I don’t want to ever have to say your name again. I want to take you for granted again. I don’t want this to be my reality. And by the way, if you are genetically so;stay the hell away from my son!
Jenna
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Jenna,
I too mourn the loss of my ThyLolly, I have to except that it is always going to be this way, and I fight, fight, fight, to get my levels stable and get someone in the medical profession to hear my pleas.
Only today after 2+ years I have finally got someone to hear me and agree with me. I took things into my own hands a few months back.. (I don’t advocate this to anyone unless you know what you are doing) but increased my dose of Levo because I was feeling so shit.
I told the Endo today I had done so and he agrees that I had done the right thing. He has also agreed to look at my FT3 and request that my GP puts that test on the form. I know I’m not going to stay stable but at least I am heading in the right direction and out of Hypohell.
Don’t give up hope that things will improve for you it takes time and plenty of patience and I must be one of the most patient people around to put up with it for so long.
And when it comes to the thyroid it knows no bounds in regards to age, colour, or sex.
Thank you for your Dear thyroid letter, makes me feel so much better knowing that I am not alone in my thinking.
I hope you too can get to a better place and start living life to the full, it is achievable it may never be the same as it used to be.
Welcome, Hashi sista! I’m young, too, diagnosed at 39. Don’t you know, 40 is the new 30, so you are actually getting YOUNGER with each passing year. It’s true, look it up! 🙂 Despite not being regulated now 6 months in (and actually, basically starting over), I am optimistic that it WILL happen. Since our thyroids are not totally kaput yet, there will be ups and downs since we still have thyroid in the gland *and* thyroid in the bottle–and only one of those is the same everyday 😉 But feel free to vent out your gland, we’re hear with you!
I too feel you pain,this thing called thyroid! I never even knew what it was…til it grew a mass and blocked my wind pipe.They had to remove half and the other side can’t keep up.But YOU are not alone,we are here for you,so vent and keep up your chin!!
It is when this darn this dang thing frist comes upon us that we feel so lost -wondering why it happened to us….I still have my thyroid..I think I was one fo those older women who went through it with my change of life…Now- after being menopausal for about 5 years- it seems like many of the things are going back to a somewhat “normal” state….is that possible? Well- I DID go off of my Armour and T-3 meds on June 20TH of this year…And I really have to tell you- I feel SO much better..I can feel what you are going through- We here at this site all experience our Thyrants in so many different ways- it IS mind boggling..We must advocate for more medical research&studying how our environment affects us- (power lines-radiation..GMO’s..even cell phone towers!)…Don’t feel as if you are alone Ms. Jenna..we’re out there in large numbers…
oops- site need spell check..(sorry s/b first not frist!)
i concur—stay the hell away from our children—however, we must show them how to take charge of our illness in casethey end up going thru it too. So fightthat fight ,sistah—-don’t look back it does no one any good. As the saying goes, “don’t cry over spilt milk” (dobn’t cry over leaky thyroid glands) Rest when your body tells you and rejoice in something every chance you get. Sometimes we get so caught up in our misery that we forget to find our joy