Glanditude – Love, Hate, Love, Hate… Love
You screwed up my entire life. When you decided to let my body shut down, I almost lost everything. I almost dropped out of school, lost my job, my friends; and my boyfriend dumped me because he didn´t want to deal with my crazy thyroid anymore.
My whole life turned into a mess. Sleeping became my number one activity, and I alienated myself from everyone in my life.
I got depressed, and I just didn´t know what to do anymore. Doctors told me I was alright and all I needed were some anti-depressants, and some exercise to feel better. Well, the anti-depressants weren´t much help. And how am I supposed to exercise when I can barely get up in the morning?
I cried a lot during that time, didn´t attend any classes, never went out, didn´t eat (and still didn´t lose any weight).
I was on the verge of giving up. But, before I finally threw in the towel, I made one last desperate attempt to try and find out what was wrong with me.
I went to see an endocrinologist and finally got the diagnosis: Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis (probably been dealing with it for about 10 years)
Now, my symptoms finally had a name. And, if you know the name of something, it gets a lot easier to fight it; hence, you know what you are dealing with. And that’s exactly what I did.
I started dealing with all the craziness you’ve caused.
Google was my first stop. I educated myself as good as possible.
I browsed through countless web pages, read books, everything just because of you. I really tried to make us work, tried to understand why you turned against me.
That was about eight months ago.
It took me some time to realize why you decided to take one last turn against me after slowly and quietly fading away for years.
You made me realize that I have to put myself first and focus on what is good for me, instead of trying to please everyone around me.
You gave me a chance to find out what I want to do with my life and appreciate the little things even more than ever before.
You turned me into a different person. I am no longer afraid to fight for what I want, and I am now closer to being the person I want to be than ever before in my life.
You brought so many amazing, inspiring people in my life I would never have meet while being my old self.
Thank you for what you did to me! You changed my life, and even though I still have to deal with a lot of awful symptoms, I would not want to go back to my old life.
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