Pissed Off Has Turned To Empowered
I suppose I should thank you for calming down a little before I went to my first endo appointment. It was nice to fool me into thinking that whatever was wrong was temporary or mild. A sort of respite from the months of flaming heat, drenching sweats, pounding heart, zombie insomnia, and crazy poop attacks. It was misleading, but nice none the less. You gave me false hope, when deep in my heart I knew I had Graves Disease. I let you fool me, it was ok. Mainly I am a realist, but this was ok with me….I didn’t want to be sick, who does? Since you were pretending to be perfectly healthy when I had my endo appointment, here is a breakdown….
Guess what? She knows about you, she knows all about you. You did not fool her one bit. She came in, sat down, shook my hand and said the words “You have 2 things. The first is Graves Disease and the second is the nodule” She explained in detail about Graves Disease, including her first choice of treatment [for the symptoms] and all other options.
Then she explained about the biopsy. She does 7-12 thyroid fine needle biopsies each month. I was blown away with that number. This is a very small state, small population. That number just is scary. There are that many thyroid nodules HERE that need biopsies? What is making all these thyroids flip out?
And you thyroid? She put me in control, you are not the boss anymore. I chose methimazole [not endo’s first choice, and she was good with that] and she gave me gory details regarding possible side effects and allergic reactions. Somehow her descriptions, and what she does to counteract or treat…relieved my fears. She will be on top of this, I WILL BE ON TOP OF THIS. She is tough, tiny and no-nonsense. Her smile was huge and she used it well. I wasn’t intimidated, my questions weren’t nonsensical. She explained things I didn’t even ask. From now on, I will think of you and treat you like the oppositional thing you are. You forget, I have dealt with a multitude of problems in my life and while you broke me initially, I know I can take this on like I have every other issue in my life… one step at a time by educating myself. It may be a battle, you may get ahead of me, but I run this show/body.
Only 5 days on Methimazole, and I feel a slight difference. A few symptoms have disappeared, how do you like that you asshat-thyroid? I know you are tricky and this treatment may need tweaking, but as I said before….. I am on top of this, and my endo has your number.
No love for you,
(bio): Amanda… who has just gotten the diagnosis of Graves Disease… one of the suckiest names for a disease ever.
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