Cancer, Took My Dignity, And So Much More; But I Can Not Let You Win This War
Funny, it has taken me a few years to write this letter. As I sit down and listen to Rich Cronin one more spin, I find myself angry. You come like death…You don’t acknowledge race, color creed, or any other preference. You come for so many, and no one knows your method of choice. I am one of the lucky ones. You have come for me twice. Each time you come for one of us, you leave with something. I have never known you to leave empty handed. You have taken marriages, friendships, friends, family and lives……
When will it end? As I sit; this simple lyric rings in my head:
“And they said that I might not live….man something’s gotta give”
Rich Cronin-story of my life
Cancer came and took friends. And, when it did not manage to rip my life from my hand, it took my dignity and my pride, and my self-respect. It left for a few months and then it came back with a vengeance. This time it commanded my life and my soul…
You have tried to take my relationship, my loved ones. They say a person is not judged by how many times he gets knocked down, but by how many times they get back up. Well after two hits, I did not feel like getting back up again….
Now, I am up and I am pissed….I will use the hate you have given me to recover and to thrive. While you took so much, you also have given me so much, new friends, a sister that I love and friends that I cherish. I will use that as my motivation to get up and go one more round with you, to fight when I no longer want too; too be the revolution I desire to see; too fight for the change that I wish to see.
You have taken so much, and while I may lose the battle. I have already won the war….
You can claim my life, but you will never claim my soul or the essence of my being….
Fight if you choose, but I have already won….
And this is the STORY OF MY LIFE……
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