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Thycanchondria?!
Dear Thyroid,
It’s been 3 years since we parted company. 3 years of worry, sadness, loneliness and fear. The word Cancer is life altering, no matter “whether” it is the good, the bad or the ugly. Cancer is not a word I wanted to hear in relationship to my body.
Sometimes I have short periods where I don’t miss you at all; when my life almost feels normal; when the medications are actually working and I can function well. But, those times are far and few between. My visits to the Doctor have increased so much…. She knows my grandkids names and ages. I go from the doctor to the ER, to the doctor … Trying to fill the void you left. But, no luck. My family thinks I should be glad you’re gone; that your negative influence is over.
I wish it was. I wish I wasn’t headed to the pharmacy to pay for yet another dosage change. Soon I will have every size, type and brand. I don’t throw them away right off the bat…. Just in case my body rebels once again.
There is always hope that this new combo of meds will work. But, hope is getting dimmer. I am tired of waiting for things to improve, only to have it worsen. The worst is that my family believes that if I just tried harder, ate better, or walked more, I would feel so much better. That I am becoming a hypochondriac and just don’t care anymore.
Those things hurt my soul. So for now Dear Thyroid, KMA.
TYVM,
Judy
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2 Responses to “Thycanchondria?!”
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Hi Judy,
I feel your words like they are my own. It is frustrating when your levels are off and the process of getting where you need to be is so friggin time consuming.
Have you ever thought about having your family read some of our letters so they understand you are not alone in your struggle? It helped in my situation.
Good luck in your journey towards better health. I know it is not always easy. Hugs!
Donna
I have been thinking about it for a couple of days. it may be a good answer.
Thank you Donna for your input. and encouragement,