And That’s The Story Of… That’s The Glory Of… Graves
Isn’t it strange how I didnt even konw you existed until last march when I was diagnosed with Grave’s ! but now we know each other quite well of course….I was feeling all wrong long before that, I had no idea that there was a mean gland in my neck that could do all this…..all of sudden I felt hot all the time my face covered with sweat -u know how fun that is- which made me feel awful affected my work and my social life….I was hungry all the time – really, all the time – and you …you….you made me GAIN WEIGHT ..no women would ever forgive that….. I couldnt sleep and I would run around the apartment at night so close to loosing my mind tired as hell but not able to sleep….the worest thing is my eyes….why couldn’t u just either leave them both alone or affect them equally ….it’s hard to look at my face in the mirror anymore all i see is my staring right eye….I don’t know who I am anymore….is it me or is it you who is anxious now ….is it me or is it you who is sad now …..and all this wasn’t enough for you , no siry , u had to keep growing out of my neck , messed up my heart rate and ya the tremors …. the one symptom left …you wouldn’t let me miss any of the fun .
remember all those doctors’ visits ? ….do you remember that stupid doctor who told me it was my fault coz it took me so long to figure it out …..do you remember all those tests ultrasound, x-rays and the CT scans ….do you know how much time i sat there worrying waiting for a test’s result or a doctor’s appointment ….my stomach sure does ….
my doc decided that no meds are gonna make u stop …so surgery is the way to go ….i don’t know how is it going to end or who is gonna win ….but i am scared out of my mind ….i am scared to lie on the surgery table ,close my eyes and never open them again …..i am scared of dying ….i am scared that this would be it …22 yrs old ,still in college haven’t done anything with my life and that would be it….i didnt hate you that much before…. i was trying to like you a little , after all it was my body who was attacking you , so you can say i started it …..but now you are ruining everything…please be kind and go away easily ….let me be me again ….
*i was diagnosed with Graves disease last march while i probably had it for a year before that , i took medication for 7 months with no response and afraid of pressure symptoms and the arrythemia i developed the doctor decided to do the operation as soon as it becomes athyroid .
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