SNAP: Slower Natural Attitude Process!
Yes, I am currently heated! I have a friend who has told me again to SNAP! out of it! That he is tired of being nice to people who come to him with certain things. I said to him, “I feel like I keep messing things up with everything….His response…”So stop messing stuff up and you won’t feel that way. You are what you think!” (their is a little bit more to this, too.)
Now, I understand that this same friends’ father is fighting a tough battle with cancer. He’s fighting a very tough fight. But, even though my friend was the only one to celebrate with me my “no evidence of disease”, meaning, ” No Cancer”, 2 months ago, I have had a very hard time “snapping” out of it! I don’t even know what that means! It doesn’t happen overnight. I am currently unemployed, barely making it financially, and I have appreciated his help and support. I thought he understood, but, maybe he really doesn’t. Even though in this same recent email, he was pushing me, telling me, he knows I can do it!
It’s harder when you are out of work for a long time. I have been constantly looking, interviewing, and I keep going……I don’t know what else I can do for myself….other than run in the relay for life and keep looking for work. He is very busy. I know that. I am busy in a different way. Both of us are in different worlds right now.
The weird thing is, is that he is right. He knows me, knows everything I have been through, and he has supported me. I do care about what my friends say. He knows I am determined and a fighter. So, these words make my temper flare….and I’m angry in general. Not really at him….but, those words, SNAP out of, really piss me off!
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