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For You, My Lovely Butterfly
Dear Thyroid;
I was diagnosed with Graves in 2006 and thankfully in remission for several years. Though, I’ve not been feeling well and have put off labs. I’m angry because I have felt normal for so long I forgot how sick feels. The intent of my letter submission is to help push past my pity party to just do what needs doing.
–FOR YOU, MY LOVELY BUTTERFLY–
Why do you flit so to and fro
Sometimes fast then slow
I’m enslaved by your inebriation
I own your highs and lows
Our acquaintance made intimate and real
That dreaded introduction that awful year
Your name is how I often feel
Living, walking, numb and fine now how that you are once again mine
The cure, you see, is little more than a patch
I can’t bear the thought of you
Your chemical changing me
So beautiful, intriguing you, oh my lovely, lovely butterfly
You arrested and my mind was clear
Why, why must you reappear
Attached to you is killing me, Your chemical changing me
I can’t stand it, it mustn’t be
Oh how I wish you’d just rest indefinitely
That way I’d be free
Love,
honeylieg
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I was diagnosed with graves disease in 1998 right after the birth of my son Nicholas. He was 3 months old when itchy skin forced me to a trip to the er. I was hoping for your suffering from liaisons the baby blues, but no he took one look at me and said you look like you have hyperthyroidism. We will run test to make sure amd then refer you to an endo. The endo said you have graves and you are in a storm. If left untreated you would have died in two weeks. My resting heart rate was 132 per min. and I had ever listed system in the book. 8 months later I got a dose of RAI. It took a lot of strength and courage but I did out o live a health life. The good days are more than the bad and the bad remind me to take care of myself. Good luck in your journey back to health!
6 years of ups and downs and loving my butterfly despite it all. Now it’s gone I feel better than I’ve done since I was 17, maybe 6. I can’t remember. But surgery was the last thing I wanted and now I feel as if it’s the best decision I never really made (like Nicole they told me I was on the way out and it was elective surgery NOW or the ER when I had a heart attack). Love the free verse. Strikes a chord.
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I am so sorry that your butterfly is acting up and we know how awful it feels to be at odds over something internal in our bodies. I wish you much peace so that you can arrive at a decision that will be most beneficial to you and to your life.
I feel your pain. I initially went to the urgent care and was found to have a resting heart rate of 155. After tons of test I was diagnosed with graves disease and after a year and a half of treatment I was in remission. Recently I’ve been tired and ill and today I weighed and realized I have dropped 12 pounds in a week. I’m not suppose to see my endo for another month. I’m so upset. I thought I was done with all this mess. Gonna try to get some bloodwork done next week. Wish me luck.