Life Through Lipstick Lenses: Siren- A red hot, bold and beautiful color
I wish I were a Chia pet sometimes, with a little water, my hair will grow. What is it with women and their hair? I have a friend with Crohn’s disease who, whenever she has a flair, has to be on high dose steroids among other things which in turn, makes her lose her hair in clumps. Being sans-thyroid, I rely on my thyroid medication to keep all my hormones in check. Well, that doesn’t always work, as you know. After the trauma of my three surgeries, RAI, and external beam radiation, I went through MANY periods of thinning hair. Now, whenever, my hormones are not correctly balanced by my Synthroid, it’s the same thing. Hair falls out, I’m gaining weight, and essentially, I’m an emotional wreck who can’t focus or finish a thought. Of all these ‘side effects’, my friend and I talk about our hair loss the most. For men, baldness is fine, sexy in fact. They catch all the breaks from getting older; as they get older, they look better. As women, a little hair loss and wrinkles are also natural as we get older, throw in any type of illness or trauma, and forget it. I have tried all kinds of shampoos, bodifying products, etc. The bottom line is that when your hair thins, there’s no hiding it and seriously, when it does decide to grow, why is it on my chin? For the past few months I watched American Idol. Sure the talent this year was amazing but what was I looking at? J. Lo’s amazing mane which she whipped around, constantly taunting me. Now I know she’s probably got some hair in there that’s not truly hers, but WOW, I couldn’t help but stare and be envious!
Here’s what I know, hair does not make a person who she is on the inside. On the inside, I know I’m a warrior; a fighter who for now has finally defeated cancer; a woman who fights to conquer fatigue and fogginess when her thyroid meds are off. I am stronger because of my history and what I’ve accomplished so far. I am a dreamer who dreams big, with or without hair. I have a scar on my neck, which after three surgeries has decided to darken and never leave me; it is a battle wound that I wear proudly to show the world I’ve won. So yes, I would love to have long, thick, beautiful hair, but I don’t think I would trade my past experiences, which have showed me inner strength I never knew I had.
Today I wear my siren lipstick. It is bright and bold and full of life which is exactly how I want to be.
Written by, Anna Warner
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