How fast your life can change
when you weren’t even looking.
Regular ol’ life,
Being mommy, cleaning, cooking.
One lump was all it took
to stop me in my tracks.
Endless nights, endless questions
searching for the facts.
Tests and needles,
stitches and bleeding
Did I do something bad to deserve this?
To God I’m conceding.
A slash on my throat draws stranger’s eyes near.
“Just a little radioactivity”, doctors say, “really nothing to fear”….
“The best cancer to have” is not running through my head alone in isolation, waiting, waiting, waiting.
Are these cancer cells all dead?
“Did I catch Mommy’s cancer?”
hurt me more than any knife.
You shouldn’t have to deal with this
in your seven years of life.
A year and it’s not over,
but what I’ve come to know,
patience and forgiveness
and when you need to just let go.
Prayers and love
Good people they surround me.
I’m one lucky woman
even though cancer came and found me.
5 May 2011
(Back-story) Had written this poem at midnight on the one year anniversary of my surgery. I found a lump in my throat and within 6 weeks it had grown. A biopsy proved it was papillary cancer and when they took it out it not only had spread to my lymph nodes, but was the size of a nectarine! RAI in August and waiting for my thyroglobulin to go down and more testing so I can hear the words “cancer-free”. What a long road.
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