When I Dream, I’m Healthy, When I’m Awake, I’m Not
Last night I had the most amazing dream. It felt so real – the sensations in it were tangible – I would have sworn it was reality.
I dreamt I was fit and strong….running through the woods on the trails. Over trees that had fallen down during storms, zigzagging this way and that around rocks, and obstacles with the greatest of ease. I could see the sunlight dappled on the ground as it filtered through the leaves of the trees. The smell of earth, moss and nature in its glory, the flowers that were blooming as I ran by them – how sweet honeysuckle smells as it wafts across the trail. Hearing the birds singing, hearing animals skittering around, dragonflies darting here and there…
I felt so good in my body…it was mine again!
Not the wreck I feel like I have now, at the mercy of some stupid autoimmune disease that I have such little control over and that has taken so much from me – my ability to have kids, my hair, my figure, my strength and endurance, my health. You and your insidious partner, Hashimoto, have taken all of those things from me and I really hate you for that.
Just to feel that strong again, healthy, connected to everything around me….
I woke up feeling so sad. 🙁
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