Rinse Repeat, Sound Familiar?
I get up at 7:00 am and wish I could call in sick to work.
Do a quick calculation in my mind and realize I can’t afford to take the time as I don’t have many “sick” hours left.
I pull into the parking lot at 8:00 am and pray for the strength to make it through the day.
I sit at my desk starring into the computer willing the hours to go by quickly.
I have made it to 10:00 am!
Now I must eat a little something – granola bar should be safe.
It is now 11:30 and people are making lunch plans……
I must come up with an excuse not to go. The truth would sound too silly….. I am too tired; I feel dizzy and don’t want to be around anyone; My stomach is bothering me and food sounds gross right now; My mind isn’t working and making conversation is not something I want to do.
The day is half over!
The afternoon is always the hardest.
The hours go by SO slowly.
I am so lightheaded and tired.
The lights in my office bother my eyes and make everything look too bright.
Can I make it until 5 or should I make up an excuse to leave a little early?
I made it, it’s 5:00!
Driving home is like a blur.
Get home and try to look alive for my girls.
End up laying on the couch with them and watch TV.
I feel like a horrible mother.
I feel like a horrible wife.
I feel like a horrible friend.
Put the girls to bed at 8:30.
Take my vitamins and supplements – Why do I bother?
For some reason I can’t sleep…….
It occurs to me that I haven’t smiled all day.
This thought makes me cry.
Do I really have to do this all again tomorrow?
Written by, Melissa
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