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The End of the Line
Dear Thyroid,
I FUCKING HATE YOUR MOTHER FUCKING GUTS. THERE IS NOTHING GOOD ABOUT YOU; YOU’RE A VILE, DISGUSTING PIECE OF SHIT. I wish you were a vestigial organ.
Unfortunately, about a year or so ago there was an essay that I couldn’t finish, and I couldn’t figure out why. After dozens of rewrites I tossed it aside, something I never do. As a rule, I write and rewrite until it, whatever it is gets finished. This piece was different. Because I had the liberty to let it go, I did, but never completely.
bored yet, me too. You will listen, you shitroid.
This week, the puzzle was organically solved, no thanks to you.
Disease went to finishing school and received a PhD in massacring relationships. Some bonds I thought were impossible to break, were annihilated.
So, I find myself obsessing about how to resolve them. Asking questions like, what else can I do? How can I make this right? How can I place myself in their shoes? Have I asked enough questions about their experience? Have I accepted enough responsibility? Is the damage to great to fix? If so, do I have the right to force resolution on them? To me, I do not. But, what the fuck do I do? My conflict breeds more inner turmoil and conflict. Being this twisted up keeps me stuck. I feel it in my bones. How do I resolve it?
I don’t fuckin’ know, though I do think you should be burned in grand style at “Burning Man.”
L
Tags: hating disease, learning how to live with broken bonds, losing everything because of disease, relationships destroyed by disease, sadness resulting from disease
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I hear ya. I wonder too, how to repair the relationships that were ruined. Sometimes, i wonder if there is a 12 step thyroid anonymous plan..
Oh boy my thyroid has started such a shitty start to a week, and I lost too many relationships that I have no one to tell about it. So just know someone across the internet totally and completely sympathizes with you!
~ElysiaB
Oh boy, it seems this is such a common occurence for us with thyroid issues, and I am sure if I take a poll we all have had issues with relationships. I completely withdrew from others and worse, damaged someone really good ones that I thought could never be broken. I symphathize with you girlie, hang in there!