Dear Thyroid, Can we please Get Back Together?
Dear Thyroid, let’s get back together?!
We’ve been friends since childhood. We helped each other, listened to each other and we could not imagine that something could change between us. We haven’t even thought about it.
Then something changed. Forever.
Do you remember our first fight? It was in December last year, that date I will never forget. I did not expect you’d get mad at me, there is no way that I could see it coming. You made my TSH to be 7, my minimum pulse was 42 and I weighed 58kg. I wanted to get back together and every day I gave you levothyroxine like you asked me to. After about a month of sulking you agreed and forgave me. Everything was like it used to be between us.
Time passed and I felt worse with every new day. I knew you were hiding something from me.
In July, you said you had enough of everything. That I had gone too far, and that you don’t want to hang out with me anymore. My TSH was 0.01, my minimum pulse 55 and I weighed 54kg. You didn’t want to listen to me and I stopped giving you levothyroxine on a daily basis. That should serve you as a lesson, you can’t aleays have your way, you know! This time I would not cut you a slack. I was disappointed with the way our friendship had ended, I could not sleep at night, and all I could think about was how to get back together with you.
One fine sunny day in August, you just appeared out of nowhere, you begged me to forget everything and start over. And I wanted that too, with all my heart! My friend returned to me, I was the happiest person in the world!
But somehow, things were not like before. I have lost my trust in you. I still spent time with you, but something just wasn’t right. I always had the feeling that you were saying one thing and doing another. However, I listened to you. When you told me to sleep – I slept. And I slept a lot. When you told me to cry – I cried. And I cried a lot. When you told me to eat – I ate. And, damn, I ate a lot. I listened to everything you were telling me and even that wasn’t enough. In early October, you decided to stop pretending, telling me that you could not forgive and forget what happened earlier in the summer. You were so bitter and angry, and wanted to get back at me so you rose my TSH to 36, dropped my minimum pulse to 38 and made me weigh 65kg. You demanded levothyroxine and wanted me to double the dose from the last time. I had no other choice and I agreed.
Dear thyroid, my dearest friend, I can not accept that we’re fighting. I miss you. I miss what we once had. This fight of ours already lasts for too long. Let’s be more careful to each other and try to make both of our lives better. I have planned to live for many more years and I would like that you live them out with me.
Let’s get back together. Please.
Written by, Jasna
My name is Jasna Rekić. I teach English language and literature in my home town and I also work as a translator. I am not married and do not have any kids. I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism a year ago and since that time I have tried everything to find out more about that disease. I am a marathon runner so that this disease really changed my life – I am still running but it is not the same as it used to be. I want to tell everyone who have problems with this that they should not give up, that they are not alone and that they can win this battle. I run even with my TSH over 50, so everything is possible 🙂 we are not to blame because we have this disease, but we are to blame if we give up. Follow Jasna on Facebook.
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