Thyroid, You Really Know how to Ruin a Girl’s Day, or is that Life…?!
It was years ago that I started to feel your debilitating effects. Six years, to be exact. I was in my freshman year of high school, a year that is supposed to be full of excitement, so thank you, thyroid, for taking that excitement and happiness away. Instead, it was full of fear, sickness and confusion.
Thanks to you, I lived my life and continue to live my life in an endless haze of exhaustion, brain fog, muscle pains and anxiety. Thanks to you, I often have to stop to take a breath after I climb a set of stairs. Thanks to you the anxiety and depression I have faced has held me back throughout the years from going out and doing normal things people my age do. Thanks to you, thyroid, every day there is a war between my exhaustion, brain fog, and my self-motivation to keep going in order to convince myself and others that I am fine.
Thanks to YOU, thyroid, it feels like no one can truly understand me. I feel too selfish to talk about you to anyone else, thyroid, for I do not want them to think I am just dramatic and whiny, when really it is just hard for them to understand that, yes someone can look “fine” and still feel terrible.
Every day I put on a tough face and a smile, but really all I want is for people to understand that you are tearing me apart inside, thyroid. You have created a new, “normal”, for me, thyroid. That normal is the endless haze you have me living in that I cannot seem to get out of. This “normal” has made me question myself and what was going on with my body every day for the last 6 years, until I was finally diagnosed with Hashimotos just a couple days ago.
So, thank you thyroid for making me feel like I was a crazy, dramatic fool all these years. Blood tests came back normal time and time again, as I was left to puzzle why I felt the way I did, but now I know it was you. I feel ripped off and pissed off, thyroid. My life has completely changed because of you.
However, thyroid, you do give me some things to truly be thankful for. If it were not for you I would have never learned to be positive, even on the rainiest of days. Also, if it were not for you I would have never gained this kind of self-motivation to push myself to do anything despite this illness. I probably would never have decided to go into Occupational Therapy either, where I can help others regain their independence and happiness again. Thyroid, even though I hate you and I hate the way you make me feel and struggle every single day, you have made me a stronger person. At least that is something I can be proud of.
(Bio) My name is Katlin and I am 20 years old and attend Western Michigan University. Although I had symptoms for years I was just diagnosed with hashimotos. I am now on the search for a proper diet that can hopefully make some of these symptoms less, well, terrible! Please connect with me here.
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