Lost That Loving Feeling of One-ness
In December 2002, they took you away from me. I am so sorry if I neglected or failed you in any way. I just didn’t realize how much I needed you. I took your abilities for granted, and for that I am ashamed. Now I am left with a slight scar on my throat I can live with that, but what I miss most is the ability to feel “connected.” To move smoothly from thought to speech…to feel focused and able to meet the tasks of the day. To maintain control of my nerves and not burst into tears at the mere mention of anything.
I simply wanted to control my diet by removing all forms of sodium, in an attempt to eat more healthy and deter the migraines I inherited. Little did I know the long-range effects of totally removing and blocking a chemical like the various sodiums from my body. Granted, this has not been verified by all of my doctors, though some agreed it was a mistake. And so I unknowingly starved you of vital nutrients.
I miss being actively outgoing and athletic but am beginning to work back towards a state of well-being, even though I’m now 55. Too late, I realized that you ARE the most important gland in the body.
Bio: I had a thyroidectomy in 2002 due to an extremely enlarged gland which grew down into my chest area. The funny thing was you couldn’t really tell I had an enlarged thyroid…no outward indication. The MRIs couldn’t even capture how big it was…it had grown out of the range of where the doctors would be looking. Diagnosis after removal: nothing pathologically wrong with my thyroid. I never experienced hyper, hypo, or para-thyroidism prior to my thyroidectomy. The thyroid was cutting off my breathing and had pressed on my Singer’s vocal chords so much that I went from a natural first soprano to a second alto (only years of training allow me to fiddle with my range now but I am still not comfortable singing anymore). Connect with Drie on Facebook