(Written by Susan Frybort, Hypothyroid Patient)
I have been coexisting with hypothyroidism for fifteen years since the age of 29, though had demonstrated obvious symptoms throughout my twenties.
The poem I wrote reflects the physical and emotional conflict I experienced in the early years of my thyroid disease. I endured a laundry list of medical problems for a full decade in the fight to regain health and balance. After becoming aware of what I can do personally for my symptoms and taking charge of my health, I can report that I have improved significantly. Like everyone else, however, I still have my ‘days’.
Susan L. Frybort
Sleeping butterfly, you rest in my neck,
How I wish I could soar with the luster of flight!
Your unhurried moves have rendered me inactive,
How you struggle yourself for one bit of might.
Deceiving butterfly, in secret you whisper
To conspire then steal my spirit and health.
In the fight I grab for words and clarity,
While you strike me again in quiet stealth.
Rude butterfly, swelling up in my throat,
Growing quietly plump are your sluggish wings
Silently shoving memories from me,
While I labor to swallow and recall simple things.
Icy butterfly, shivering in the cold despair.
Your body seeks heat, though you repel warmth and friends.
Within the reclusive and frigid lowliness
We huddle together and wait while it ends.
Idle butterfly, grounded in a lazy slumber,
How you were once spectacular just like me.
Now colorless and dull you fade in time
Along with my flightless vitality.
Nervous butterfly, so anxiously we tremble,
Despondency claims your thoughts gone astray.
Your blank stare fills an emptied mind
As the color drains from our mood and array.
Feeble butterfly, I pity you
And cheer wobbly attempts to lift and go.
Though weighted down by your silent disease,
Incurable, imperfect, you suffer so…
Just like me.
~ Susan L. Frybort
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