My Bipolar Thyroid
This is my first submission so, here goes….. My name is Jill and I have been recently diagnosed with both Graves and Hashimotos after many years of pain and misdiagnosis. These are my thoughts and feelings currently.
My Dear Thyroid,
The greatest of criminals have all been named, or nicknamed, for various reasons which we have come to remember them. Influenced by the crimes they have committed or the clues they have left behind, these names define who and what they are for the world. Dear Thyroid, I dub thee my Bipolar Bandit. Sending me from one extreme (Graves) to the next (Hashimotos) you have reeked havoc in my life, and the lives of those around me. I feel you should pay.
But……….if only you were someone else.
You have spent so much time stealing the identities of other diseases and disorders to conceal yourself, and in the process have cost me my credibility to those I have sought help from. I have been drugged and left helpless to fight as I struggled to follow the clues to who you truly were. I have been kidnapped and taken hostage from the memory of my former self. You have stolen my strength and the faith I use to have in people. The admiration I use to have for the hardworking medical community is now gone.
As the nightstalker you crept into my bed, uninvited, and raped me of my sleep. Along with my sleep went my peace of mind, security and sanity. In the twisted way you work, you gave back my sleep just to take my strength. You have stalked your prey for quite some time and taken what you felt like.
You have assaulted me with immeasurable pain for which I struggle to make it through most days. You have lit a fire within me that I never new or imagined was possible and vandalized my being. You have acted in inexcusable ways that can never be taken back and caused pain on my family as they almost lost their wife and mother.
You ………….if only you were someone else
I am a victim of identity theft, fraud, defamation of character, petty theft, burglary, robbery, aggravated assault, simple assault, rape, larceny, arson, vandalism, loitering, disorderly conduct and attempted murder. I have been victimized to the point of no return. My life, and the lives of my family will forever be changed.
If you were only someone else, you would be held accountable for your crimes. A trial by jury, sentencing, justice, and peace of mind for the victims you took with the crimes you’ve committed. Unfortunately I am left to face my attacker every day. I am not at a point of acceptance or forgiveness, but have taken a familiar rode to many victims – revenge. Although not as quick or satisfying as a jail or death sentence, I swallow your poison every day and know I will wake up one day and not see you in the mirror.
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