I wonder how many of us feel chronically worthless and for countless reasons. Do we feel like we let ourselves down when our brains want to run, do and see, but our bodies won’t allow us to? Do we feel we let our families down because our minds and, or bodies don’t feel well enough? Do we say yes with good intentions and when the day arrives, a withered body can’t peel itself off the couch? Or a dysfunctional thyroid brain can’t see beyond itself?
I wonder how all of this factors into our sense of self. I wonder about the little tears in our hearts and if those tears will erupt into a huge broken heart. I wonder if that broken heart will destroy every fiber of self worth we have? I wonder if the damage is irrevocable.
I wonder how many times we apologize in a day for not being there. I wonder what those apologies equate to. Don’t get me wrong, apologizing, in my opinion is a good thing. Though, I wonder if we ever truly move past the consequences of our actions that resulted in the apology.
Chronic illness and chronic worthlessness, are they synonymous? I wonder how we reinvent ourselves. I wonder how we repair broken relationships and establish new ones, including ourselves.
So, tell me, do you feel chronically worthless? Do you feel chronically great? Whatever the case may be, let’s talk about it and gain strength from each other.
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